Hi guys...I wanted to discuss a serious matter about my channel and what I've done in the past. I really hate making DeviantArt cringe videos and I wish I never made them. They were poorly crafted, my mic was terrible and I acted like a fool, not even giving proper good constructive criticism. I didn't know how to give good criticism but I liked trying yet I still failed miserably. I only jumped on the Deviantart ranting bandwagon because it was popular, I wanted to see cringe, and I wanted to try criticizing. I hate all the videos and how they turned out. The videos themselves are more cringy than the art displayed.
Recently I've been thinking about what I've done and I regret making them.I am hyper sensitive and care about other people and how they think of me. I have a tiny bit of self esteem, it's so very low and has made me feel concerned about how people think of me and my videos. Strong hate on me is like gun shots though my back, they hurt me and I become unmotivated and sad. Reading through TheNamesJunkie
's great and constructive Endergirl1212 rant video's comments destroyed me, seeing people hate me and comment on how stupid I was, (I know I am dumb) made me feel even more down and just feel hurt. I never meant MS Paint wasn't real art or wasn't supposed to be used, I messed up and tried saying something else but it came out wrong. I'm embarrassed at what my channel became, just cringe, that's it.
I wish I criticized people better but I was scared I 'd hurt their feelings if I criticized them so I hardly criticize.
Now that people are leaving and unsubscribing because I don't make Cringy Deviantarts anymore I feel sad. I know that they aren't real fans but still, I'm losing so much.
I hope you guys understand, this is why I don't make many of those videos anymore. I could type endlessly more about how I hate what I did but, my hands are tired and I feel depressed talking about it..
Thank you for reading.
Love you guys.